Trott Family

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Feeling Lost

I've been feeling lost lately in my life. I don't know what I'm doing wrong but it's not working so well. Everything we try seems to fail and miserably. The kids are always in combat mode with each other. Which raises my stress to the max. I just don't know what's going so wrong. We have 3 vehicles and not 1 can be used. I guess I'm ranting a little but where else can I if not on here. I feel so lost, I've never felt like this before. I feel like no matter what I do it's not going to help. My world is crashing down and I don't even know why. I'm miserable most of the time, though I put on a good show in public. Wouldn't want anyone to know. Here comes a kid wanting to know what I'm doing like they have to check up on me. Comical isn't it. My eldest son told me today he wishes I was gone. My other son told me if I run away he wants to come with. At least somebody wants me around. Not one of them will do what I ask them too. I'll say come here and they'll say why with that nasty whine that makes me just want to slap them. I'll say we need to get this place cleaned up and they'll say NO I'm not doing it. I tell them they don't have a choice it needs done and they helped make the mess so lets get to it. You'd think it was a war. I hear screaming and jumping and kicking and beating on whatever is handy. My oldest will storm off to the hallway and proceed to kick the wall so hard it looks it will tip over. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like a prisoner or a slave. Should I really have to listen to my children call me mean and horrible names while they beat on my house every time I ask them to help with something? How do I reverse this? I just feel lost.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Our House

I decided I would post a picture I took of the outside of our house from the road. This is what a person would see driving by. I don't have any good pictures inside yet but eventually it will happen. The first picture is of our main door with the kids standing on the porch, this is the side of the house around the corner to the right of the picture from the road.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Romans 12:2

"Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will know what God wants you to do, and you will know how good and pleasing and perfect his will really is." NLT

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Quote for the day

"Most people, sometime in their lives, stumble across truth.
Most jump up, brush themselves off, and hurry on about their
business as if nothing had happened."
Winston Churchill